I learnt how to say ‘Fuck your mother’ in Chinese. I’m a winnnner.

I miss Sadie,
I miss my mumma,

I miss Chloe
I miss Ruby

I miss Danni

I miss Lisa

I miss Jade.

Today I was having one of those days when I was all like: ‘What the fuck am I doing here?”


To make myself happy i did what i do best. Shopping. New nails, set of coca cola mugs, brown hair and a hello kitty calculator.

I went for dinner with Kirsty to this cute ‘western’ place. I had beers, a milkshake and baguette. Fucking rats.
We bumped into a white guy, who was obviously pleased to see us. He has been here for a month and seen zeroooo foreingers. That is where I am living. In the middle of nowhere.
He sneakly paid for our dinner. What a gentlemen!!
Hot Italian accent too.

Bar for the two of us. Jack Daniels and coke for the whole night for me.
Then rode home, fried rice on the way from walking street.
I know I’m happy.
Happier than I have been at home for a long time.

Maybe, I’m being weak and taking the easy way and just running away.
I dunnno. I dont care.
At home it was always the fucking extremes.

I wanna go home,
But I wanna stay away forever.

[9:10:04 PM] tessi McDowell: how is the girrlll
[9:10:06 PM] tessi McDowell: sadie?
[9:10:56 PM] Trina McDowell: she is a menace, she wonders all around the house in the middle of the night she doesnt know where she is
[9:11:03 PM] tessi McDowell: HAHA
[9:11:10 PM] tessi McDowell: so you are still getting up for her
[9:13:49 PM] Trina McDowell: yes she has been going into my room (rumpus) because when its sunny the sun shines through the window she sits on the floor and laps up the sun today she had mud all over her paws and its all over the carpet,  Mitchell was meant to be babysitting her but he fell asleep and she sneaks in when noone is around
[9:14:10 PM] tessi McDowell: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
[9:14:20 PM] tessi McDowell: so she owns the carpet now
[9:15:24 PM] Trina McDowell: yea lately she thinks she can go anywhere until I catch her then she looks at me stupid not knowing why i am growling at her
[9:15:56 PM] tessi McDowell: what a cutieeeee

I always think my embarassing drunk stuff has gone under the radar then i find out it actually hasn’t. Everyone seems to know the details. gah.